Ok. Deep breath. I’m not proud of what I’m about to write however if I’m going to be totally honest and move forward with this blog in the way I hoped to then it’s confession time…
Living Life can be so f**king hard sometimes!
This summer with my 5-year-old has been tough. There have been times when I have really been angry with her. To the point where if I think about it in hindsight, I may have reached the end of my tether more quickly than warranted and potentially been a bit of a bully.
That’s not good and I feel really awful. I was complaining to someone the other day that she gets so aggressive. If she’s cross she’ll lash out and hit the closest person to her and be deliberately nasty. She’s bright and knows what she’s doing.
And then bam. I realised that all she’s doing is copying me.
Since my brother died I have been very angry. The first 18 months were particularly bad and maybe now it’s just become a habit. The boys had a tendency to have short tempers, dad especially, and I have always been apt to flare up quickly with a short fuse. I guess that’s been ok till now however it’s not acceptable with my babies. Not if I want to have a close, loving relationship with them and actually show them that I love them unconditionally.
So some changes need to be made. I have to get a grip on my behaviour if I want my child to get a grip on hers.
I realise that this is very personal and not necessarily something that’s of interest to many of you kind folks who read this so hope I don’t bore you too much however I’m hoping that by opening up about my struggles with living my best life, it may help others who are struggling too.
I’ve been reading and learning about loads of personal development stuff over the last couple of years but I’ve been a bit useless at actually doing the activities and following through with the advice so my plan is to put the activities on here, actually do them myself and share my results and hopefully some of the ideas might help somebody else.
The first thing I’m doing is reviving the Orange Rhino Challenge and vowing to not shout at my kids for 1 month starting tomorrow.
Love & strength to you on your journey xx